9 months of Friendship~Love

I hate it. My heart is going to explode like a nuclear bomb. I can imagine how it’s going to happen. I can’t understand myself. I really want to move on but boredom’s doesn’t help. I was still a little bit crazy over him. I can’t help it. I really missed him a lot. I miss his sweet text messages, his laughs, his smile, and everything about him. I really can’t help myself. I was still reminiscing the old days, our first meeting, the bonding moments where there’s still no feeling at all, Our CAT Overnight “His Birthday” , December 22 the day where I can help but to confess my true feelings over him. It was like “Wala na talaga kong Lusot”. It wasn’t really obvious but because of his friends and with my friends there’s a feeling build between the two of us. That we really can’t deny at all. Until, 2011 arrived. January 27 His retreat letter that really breaks my heart. February 19 Our JS prom He is my first and last dance. And it was a fairytale and the greatest story ever told. I really can’t help myself but to listen with the songs that reminds me of him and I was crying like there’s no tomorrow. March 12 He confessed his true feeling for me with the song “Maniwala ka sana by Parokya ni Edgar” and I was crying while there’s a big smile on my face ‘coz He just want us to still be friends. March 29 came and it marks the biggest changed in my life. He wanted to court me. And of course I said “YES.” Days passed by, My Graduation Day has finally done. Until April 17 came, and it was totally an emotional break down, I finally made my decision I don’t want to love a guy who was still confused about his feelings. So, I have to let go of this feelings though it really breaks my heart. It was the right thing to do. And I have to be strong enough and if we really meant to be then it is. Only the right time can tell.



Xiah.